Lessons Learned

Only A Mood

My face I was hiding
I was hiding my face
What was my disgrace?
No eyes would I meet
I look within
And see only questions
But this is only a mood

Outside the wind is blowing
It is noisy
I can hear the cars on the freeway
And airplanes and jet engines
The sun is fierce in the west
But soon it will set
The grass and the trees like the sun
But only as long as they have water
And it has been very dry this year
I notice slight pains here and there
In my neck and calf, ear and side
Discomfort constant but bearable
Now I hear a siren
Standing around with members
Of the ruling class
They have ruled us into this
For their own satisfaction
For their big homes and cars and
Vacations in Europe, and servants
And jewelry and all their trappings
Of wealth and influence
And others take their place after
Rising through the ranks
Not remembering the guillotine
That the little people can only take so much abuse
before they rise up
And turn the tables
But when they come to power they only repeat
The ways
They become cold and selfish and greedy
And learn to kill for sport
How can I look in the face
Of someone when I know they
Are going to die?
When I see death and what accompanies death
Suffering, fear, panic, madness
But there is nothing to be done
It is what it is
And this is just a mood
My face will light up with joy again
I will gaze with intense love into the eyes
Of my beloved
I will feel comfort and desire
And fulfillment of desire
The sun will set and rise again
But I also know
that there will be a last sunset
A final nightfall
A separation and finish
I can only hope that then
My eyes will open in another world
A good world and a world
With other eyes to gaze into
So I can go out with hope
Hope for tomorrow
Hope for me
Hope for you
Hope for everyone
Hope that the final sunset will not be so final
Hope that the emptiness will be filled
Questions answered
Loves revived, lovers reunited
Tears of joy mingled
All forgiven
All triumphant
All victorious and happy